Ah fucking fuck it

Two week wait. Spoiler; its fucking hard!!!!

It’s only day 4 since egg collection. My little embryos should still be under the watchful eye of the clinic. But they’re rattling around inside me and frankly I’m not sure I’m qualified for this. 

Implantation won’t have occurred yet, if it’s going to, yet I’m still desperate *to know*. I feel like something so so big, so important, should be written. It should be known. Predicted already, set in stone. So can’t I just know???? Man I don’t even believe in fate or whatever. But how can I not know. 

I’m swinging between being massively excited and sure sure sure it’s worked and then convinced it hasn’t. With some crazy thrown in. 

I want this so bad. 

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12 thoughts on “Ah fucking fuck it

    1. As I understand it, if there had been lots of good looking ones, they would have let them fight it out til day 5 to see which was the best for transfer. As there were only two that could be transferred, and they weren’t top quality, they would do better back with me rather than in a lab xx

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  1. Can’t even imagine how you are feeling! My gf is due her egg collection on Thursday, triggering tonight. The nerves are definitely getting to me. Can I ask what your lining was when you transferred? Mines is around 9 at the mo so hopefully get a bit thicker for transfer. I am really hung up on getting a day 5 transfer but I doubt that will happen so I will be happy with anything. We are from Northern Ireland by the way! Best of luck for your 2ww. I will be joining you before long 🙂 x

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    1. Hi! Good luck for Thursday I hope you get lots of healthy eggs! I don’t know what my lining was, it was 10 I think two days before trigger.
      I was set on a day 5 too, and was briefly upset about a day 2, but it did feel right in the end and I’ve been reading up on success stories aha! What’s your blog name? X

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  2. My blogs private at the minute because I need to amend a few identifying things lol. day 3 transfer will be Sunday for us and then if we do get to day 5 it’ll be Tuesday (Valentine’s Day). We went for a scan this morning which showed 7 good sized follicles over 18mm with a few ones just a bit behind! So I will be happy with 6 mature eggs. How have you been filling your days?x

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    1. That’s similar to me, first scan showed 4, second showed 7 then next scan showed 8 and I got 8 eggs. I was disheartened that only 3 fertilised though… they said there wasn’t much sperm/egg interaction. Maybe I should have coached them better they’re not used to men aha!
      Um I’ve had the last few days off, first day I was resting, and a little dog walk, as didn’t feel 100% but sent me crazy tbh so started working on a photo project for the house. Last two days I’ve been baking and shopping and doing some training with the dogs, as well as photo project.. they don’t often have a human at home so it’s nice for them. Back to work tomo and I think it will help tbh! What are your plans? X

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  3. How’s the 2ww going for you? We had egg collection on Thursday, 8 eggs collected 7 mature and 6 fertilised so we are now waiting for our day 2 phone call to tell us how they are developing! Hope you are well x

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    1. Ah that is fab news! Really hope you get good news today 😊😊 ah man I don’t know one minute I’m convinced my period is coming the next I’m convinced I’m pregnant! Very hard just keep thinking when can I test! Have daily period type cramps that come and go, don’t know if that’s good bad or just the side effect of the progesterone! X

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